Even though you’re gone,
We’ll keep moving on.
You’ll be another thought—a memory,
Someone who was just like me.
You should hear the things that they say
That you “quit and threw it all away.”
That “you didn’t care about the rest world,”
“Selfish. Good riddance.” Other “sentiments” hurled.
Though, I know that you’re somewhere around,
Safely watching all the things that will become unbound.
They say it’s a joke, a cop-out, and easy to quit,
“Live. Let love. C’mon, man, take another hit.”
To leave behind all that you love and make a great escape,
When we live and breed in a world full of greed and hate.
For when the demons have finally won, what more is there to say?
“Why did you give up. Why didn’t you stay?”
So often we say that we’re fine,
Debating, procrastinating, biding my time.
When will it be?
All this misery…
Too many times I’ve put it all down,
Not to let myself be consumed, pulled under and drown.
Letting others know that it’s not my time to go.
And though I smile and try to be strong,
My thoughts, they’re dark; caged, I don’t know how long.
Eventually, the dam will break,
All that has been locked away—will I wake?
It’ll be a day where there’s no preparation,
Maybe then we can have our conversation.
In the end, we die alone,
But in life we’re lights, shone.
To each other in the dark,
We guide one another, looking for our spark.
And so your story might have ended,
Those who are lost will continue to be tended.
Our invisible wounds from which that we bleed,
All the pain and agony inside which has sown its seed.
We’re not alone in our daily struggle,
But the world makes it harder to “love your neighbor.”
Frowned upon and looked down on,
Being called “a freak,” and “you should kill yourself.”
The problem isn’t us or those that already hurt,
It’s those that antagonize and do so spurt—
Content and think they’re “safe” behind their computer screen,
When they’ve never even met you or me.
So I understand why you felt you had to go,
I only wish you could have lived to see life so.
What wonders that maybe… the world will bring,
Even if though we’ll never hear you sing.
Comfortably numb do I exist,
Still, I’ll fight and continue to resist.
The darkness and horror that lives within,
So that maybe others can be helped—that they can see what life’s like when it begins.
Rest easy, and thanks for all you’ve done.